unaware if i
ever slept
or if this is just one
continuous
day of sleep deprived inhibition
the sky is dark
the ambient light
a nightlight pervading
the ever growing
darkness within
manifested externally
in a display of
black on black on black
on lavender fever dreams
across the asphalt
i see my distorted reflection
in the mud puddle
muddled in a way
that i cannot rectify
the real
from the delusion
vomiting alphabet soup
across the
carefully crumbled concrete
stuck in the sisyphean hell
that looks just enough
like heaven
to keep the embers
glowing in the storm