in the last
moments
of night
when sleep
calls
with a lullaby
pulling
heavy eyelids
down
down
down
do you know
i see your face
that i utter
your name
with words of love
as the pillow
cradles
my face
that my last
thought
as i fall into
the ink stained
hallways
of dream
is your smile
lighting up
my mind’s eye
a star gone
supernova
expanding
across the parts
of the day
unprocessed
obliterating
any and every
random thought

and then
sweet oblivion

or my first
thoughts
always
return to you
upon waking

how
in the middle
of the night
i look for you
feel a pang
in my chest
when i
remember
you were never
really
there

then
the cycle
repeats

some nights your
absence
is an icicle
piercing up
through
the third
and fourth
ribs

on others
your presence
lays nuzzled
invisibly
around my brain
a nimbus of
soothing
radiating
joy

in those
last moments of
consciousness
you suffuse
my being
with
light

thank you
doesn’t seem like
enough
so take my soul
and an iou
for a later
date