woke up
on the numb
side
of the bed
the constant
ache
shivering
through my
skull to
finally settle
in my jaw
snapped
my synaptic
response
leaving me
blissfully
numb
confortably
dumb
sipping coffee
as the clouds
threaten
rain.

each time
i woke
in the dark
knees to
chest
unwilling to
feel
the surges
coursing
coarsely
through
my bone prison
i begged
the cosmos
to take away
your pain
to ladle it
happily
upon mine
to let me
wallow
while you
soar.

i speak
to the
emptiness
lingering
between our
mouths
shuffling
barefeet
through the
shattered
dreams
and echoed
prayers
best left
unheard
in this
cacophonous
swirl
softly giving
words to
my desires.

woke up
numbed
to the endless
aches
running callously
through
the absence
of my arms
wrapped
fiercely
around you.