you came into my world a savior, an angel offering grace, a divine blessing, erasing the stain of sin from my weary blackened soul

i was the fallen one, swinging like a pendulum between avarice and sorrow, you gave balance when it was needed most

and now you’re gone

a bittersweet memory, the faint smell of roses on the breeze

and i am growing weaker by the day

weaker by the day

i fell into your gravitational pull, my elliptical orbit dreaming me closer with every dizzying spin

no longer able to sustain life, you took me in

no longer able to see truth, you opened my eyes

but now you’re gone

and i am all alone

were you ever real or just another figment of my mind, an illusionary diversion of desperate hope in the final dwindling moments of time

are you there, can you hear my whispered cries, or is it another trick my failing sanity plays

i can smell you in the air, hear your laughter, feel your warmth in this frigid cold

i realize you are gone

i do

but it doesn’t stop the dreams does it

it doesn’t make you here, doesn’t make you any more real than the the smoke i exhale

my angel sent from the lord above, my vision, my everything

we both knew i could only cause your fall, couldn’t be your anything, but still you tried to raise me up at the cost of your wings

two fallen souls doomed to grow apart, but only one of us could let go

and you are no longer here

and i wait for you

knowing you will never return, greener pastures and better lies await

a better life awaits

back to soaring above mere mortals, spread your wings my love, and if you ever feel weak i am here

always here

patiently

as your feathers drift to the earth below, i gather them and await your return