how long has it been since i’ve seen the sun

is it weeks now

the sky opened and let loose the rains

and i cannot tell any longer

if it is a reflection of me

or if i am a reflection of it

when was the last time

any of this felt worth it

that there was a palpable feeling of change

just more of the same

rainy skies

tear filled eyes

this ache seems monumental

it persists long past typical pain

if i could just see the sun

one more time

one last instance of radiance

perhaps it will get easier to hold on

until then i’ll wander along the flooded streets

dreaming of more

in a land that only gives sodden denials