i had hoped
by staying in my cell
the transformation
would not occur
wrapped in chains
of pure silver
away
from prying eyes
temptations
of the sweetest
variety

alone
with the beast
that lies
within
pain is momentary
but
the memory iself
that lasts
your entire life

i could never
rectify
the two halves
of my identity
you
you brought out the best
but
awakened
the beast
as well

both sides
love you tremendously
but one
wants only to protect
to hold
to comfort
the other
wants to consume
ravage
make scream
from the bottom
of your soul
in the depths
of sheer

i can no longer tell
pleasure
from pain
or how to deal out one
without
the other

all that remains
just the howls
of the beast
and
the need
for you