they took my car
last week
my phone
a month before
woke up this morning
to twenty eight degrees
and my power
shut off
how much worse
can it get
when everyone tells you
it has to get better
before you realize
the truth is
you are done

here’s the deal
the unbridled scoop

at the end of september
i was let go
from my job
i asked
for more training
they asked me
to leave
since then
it has been
unemployment
and failure
i don’t know
how many interviews
before my phone
got shut off
hundreds of applications
as i fell
farther and farther
behind
it got harder
with no phone
harder with no food
then
they repossessed
the car
i told myself
i was badly bent
not broken
then i woke up
to no power

if this is a test
i have failed it
if this is a lesson
i have missed
the point

it is one thing
to be highly functional
with depression
it another
when the depression
is all
that functions

i try to stay strong
eat ramen
once a day
drink water
keep fighting
but i am drained
done
cannot take another
set back
pit fall
calamity