i feel like i am falling farther and farther from okay, anxiety keeps building, tension is mounting to unbearable levels
things are getting better
then why oh why am i getting worse
the thick make up, fresh coating of paint, does nothing to seal the cracks in the facade, to half the inexplicable fall into misery
this should be a time for riding high
the book is out and the reception has been great
new job, new car, new lease on life
yet i find myself more and more unwilling to want to live it, fatigue has set in, some days all i want is to see the finish line
is fulfilling dreams really fulfilling if it is all done alone
i don’t know anymore
but i am tired of it all
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I understand all this. Perfectly. Hmm, maybe that means you’re not alone.
Congrats on the new job, by the way.
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thank you sir. For both.
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hovered over the ‘like’ button, but hard to push on this one.
no words either though …..
none that don’t sound like cliches.
Breathe, step, breathe, step… the finish line slowly recedes into the distance, a new track eventually emerges.
And that, is all I know about that……
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You made a fantastic choice.
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There is no scale of measure when it comes to feelings unfortunately and fortunately
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Its like surrounded by people and feeling deadly alone.
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it is
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