she said to me
you’re gonna regret this
in the morning
i kept my mouth shut
as i was already
regretting it
at that exact moment
but it didn’t really matter
as i am
an insomniac
so morning never
quite comes

she asked me causally
how do you sleep at night
knowing
all of the bad things
you have done
i shrugged and smiled
because
the truth of it was
it was everything
i had ever done
that echoed loudly
preventing sleep

maybe i was more
self aware
or she was so far
removed from reality
to see the truth of things
either way
i didn’t sleep that night
or the next
but it had little to do
with her
i just didn’t want
to break it
to her