i never
begged you
to love me
because
i was
too busy
begging you
to treat me
as simply
a human
being beaten
down by
a lack of
considerations

the fact
i had to
beg at all
shows how
one sided
the entirety
encapsulating
our accident
truly was

sad puppy eyes
and maternal
scarring
left me
less a man
and more
a piteous pet
unashamedly
accepting scraps
for the pleasure
of a moment’s
consideration
as the words
call out
into the nothing
in your eyes
you gave so
freely
to me.