my every cell
began vibrating
the moment
my eyes opened
and it has been a
constant state
of agitation
filling the abject
misery with these
electrifed hornets
of sheer anxiety.

i cannot choke
down the worry
nor can i pinpoint
the cause as every
thought is dipped
in panicked toxins.

even the sparrows
shriek a warbling warning
that takes these
ill formed thoughts
and turns them to
full volume screams
tearing at my already
bloody throat left
tight from a week spent
wracked with coughing spasms.

murmuring my love
into the aether between
half gulped breaths
telling myself on loop
it isn’t the end
that would be a relief
compared to this
consistency of crushing
anxietal pressure.