lately
my condition of
beingavaguelyhuman
walking contradiction
has left me
paralyzed

the nascent spark
of hope glowing
from the thunderous
rebuke from
we the people
to the corrupt
house of cards
stammers fitfully
in the toxicity
of reality
leaves a fool
mostly desensitized
and increasingly anxious

i crave stability
structure
then find myself
smothered by it
needing the electric
deluge of chaos
to maintain engagement

a creature at rest
more an emotional metronome
just out of sync
with the world around me

two thoughts ahead
already seeing the credits
while the ending unfolds
for the enraptured audience

the textbook definition
ofaperpetuallydissidentpoet

the lodestone in my hollow head
inconstantconflictwiththeone
pulsating in my dessicated heart
both confident in their pull
defining true north as a fork
as defined by magnetic swirls
in the shape of her perfect smile
as acid etched into the unravelling
double helix of bipolar denials