Balcones Fault

i’ve left my heart and soul
scattered along i-35
from dallas to del rio
shattered
like the tectonic shifts
as my emotional stability
was fracked
in hopes of mining
precious commodities

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Fractured

you opened things inside of me
made me think
there was a chance
at something more
but it was me being an idiot
i hate myself for believing

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Dream

letting yourself
dream
losing yourself
in fantasy
is detrimental
to depression

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??

why couldn’t you have been real?

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Release

her fingernails dragged down my wrists/slicing deep/the tendons snapped back like rubber bands/as blood poured across the porcelain/my vision darkened/soon all that remained was her slight smile/whispered words of forever

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Zero Sum

i begin to wonder
if life would be better
somewhere else
or
if maybe
the problem is me
the dark cloud of despair
is a fragment
of my soul
let loose
to sabotage
everything
no matter what though
no one
could have loved you
like me