i was driving home
just wiped out
done
pulled up to home
and as i did one of those stupid love songs came on
the one you tell yourself to delete
but you can’t pull the trigger
and with dread
the shuffle goes
and the first notes hit you like a hammer to the jaw
i was tired
and i sat in the car listening
unable to get out of the fucking car
and as the chords strummed down the core of my being
all i wanted was to get out
but i had to hear it until the end
and i wish you were sitting there
because the words were meant for you
and it killed me knowing you would never be sitting beside me as the tears roll down my cheek
i sang it to you
could you feel it
for three minutes
i poured my fucking heart out to you in the only way i can
in the only way i will
and as those words echoed in the car
i forgot how tired i was from work
the bone weary feeling of knowing i’ll never hold you in my arms
that i’ll never kiss your neck and whisper my love into your ear
it destroyed me
so i’ll whisper it again
one last time
and let the dream die
as the last notes ring
then i’ll delete the song
set the car on fire
stagger inside and let boiling water shower down to burn the imaginary taste of you off of my tongue
sear it from my flesh
but for three minutes
i put every last ounce of me into the air
knowing it would never reach you
another scar was formed
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This reminded me of a break up I had I choked in tear of me singing to The Our song, so sad…
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it us miserable but it happens
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Just another sad love song wracking my brain… I totally get it.
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turned into a night of bill evans trio to keep the lyrics out of the equation.
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when i hear those opening notes, i see how fast i can run to the radio to turn that fucker off. i am so tired of a song being able to tear me apart.
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I’m a glutton for punishment
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granted it took me 20 years to start turning off the radio….
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damn. I think I’ve done nearly the exact same thing… at least down to the burning of the car. This evokes such a deep longing and my heart, oh my heart, it dies just a little bit, shrivels and swells with a deep ache. One, I wonder what that special song is that makes you think of her. Two, I wonder if she knows just how you feel for her. Three, I’ll keep to myself. Really great job on this Mike. It’s terrible and glorious all at once.
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the song changes depending on where i am. it can be the eels or alkaline trip or bully. a lot of the time since last year it has been bully. i went and saw her in concert in December (bully is, god don’t get me started the album losing fuck me running it is so good.) she, if she even exists, would never know how i feel because. well i don’t have a good reason. tired of being trampled i guess. and three you kept to yourself
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Yes. I did.
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listen to bully. it is the first album where i think part of me fell in love with the singer. it might not be that for everyone but her words hit me hard.
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