first and last

1)

she stared at me
waiting for me to make the first move
in my head i knew i should lean forward and kiss her
knew it was what we both wanted
all i could do was stare into her eyes

6)

she pulled me down the hallway to show me the framed pictures of her on the wall
i followed as she held my hand and it was electric to just be in contact with her
she pointed to the pictures of her with pigtails
it was cute seeing her with the same devilish smile on a younger face

2)

she sat next to me on the couch
i didn’t know what was happening
i was hungover
she woke me up with a knock at the door
it was strange to see her standing there
my mouth tasted like stale alcohol
she sat too close

5)

she didn’t say a word
just stared at me with hungry eyes

3)

it wasn’t clear if what we had was flirtatious or friendly
bounced somewhere between the two
i stopped trying to read between the lines
but that day it was different
the air between us seemed to be heavy
i was unaware of what changed but knew something had

4)

i got out of the car and she was standing there
i remember it was a hot day
the wind blew dust and grit and the smell of oranges we had talked for weeks
but this was the first time we stood in front of each other

1)

she watched me watch her
i was frozen in her green eyes
i don’t recall her moving
suddenly she was straddling me and her lips were on mine
sweetly at first
but then her tongue tasted my lips
i moaned and that was all she needed
she reached down and laced her finger into mine

6)

i told her she was adorable in the pictures with her serious eyes
i looked at her with a smile
she didn’t smile back
she grabbed me by the beard and pulled me in
it was not sweet
her lips pressed against mine in ferocious hunger
we stood kissing each other so forcefully my lips felt bruised the next day
it was the intensity of someone starving and finally being able to feast

2)

i kept trying to get some distance between us
but no matter what i did she was right there
all i felt was confusion
then she grew tired of what she perceived as me playing hard to get
i was staring at the wall when i felt her tongue on my ear lobe
a shudder went through me
i turned to her and without thinking gave her exactly what i didn’t realize she wanted

5)

there was no small talk
she knew exactly what she wanted her hand reached down and grabbed my crotch
and before i could understand what was happening
form a thought
she smiled and raised an eyebrow
i ran my fingers into her hair and pulled her in
she bit my lower lip and drew blood
her hand squeezed forcibly
my free hand ran up her skirt

3)

she asked if i ever thought about kissing her
i cocked my head
she asked again
i leaned forward and did
she melted into me

4)

we didn’t speak
i gave a half smile
her eyes teared up
i wrapped arms around her and kissed the tears from her cheeks

1)

she was tired
of me and from work
i didn’t know the first but was aware of the second
i leaned down and kissed her forehead

6)

we made love
we came together
staring into each other’s eyes
still locked together
her legs wrapped around me
she lifted her head and kissed me gently for the longest time

2)

she lay still
almost as if asleep her hair and make up were exactly as she always liked them
i stared with tears falling down my cheeks
i leaned in and kissed her forehead
it was ice cold

5)

she bent over and stuck her left foot back into her panties
someone knocked on the door behind her
i was pulling my pants back up she opened the door and
the lady just stood there staring at me as i rushed to bet my boxers on
he’s all yours she laughed
she kissed me on the cheek and walked away

3)

she couldn’t look at me
i couldn’t understand
she tried to speak but the words caught
her lips caught mine as her feet headed towards the door

4)

she slapped me
her other hand lifted to do the same
i caught it and said no more
she begged me to kiss her one last time
like the first
i pulled her in and poured the very last vestige of a near empty love into her
this time i let the tears fall

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