(un)titled ode XXII

i wish
i knew your
favorite animal
the one
you love
the most
the one
you would keep
as a
pet
if
i knew
which
animal
that was
i would
study in tibet
behind enemy lines
go against
the
chinese government
learn
the secrets
of
reincarnation
of
karmic return
then
i
would
commit crimes
just enough
of them
just
the right amount
of
damage
to
my tattered soul
and then
step in front of a bus
or
off a cliff
whatever it took
to come back
as
your favorite thing
because
you
are my favorite
if this
feeble
human frame
cannot
dedicate itself
to
loving you
with
every fiber
of
my being
and
receive
your love back
i will become
whatever it takes
to
dedicate myself
to you
in a form
you will accept
because
i love you
that fucking much
and
you

well
you
are worth
a little pain
discomfort

so
one day
when you see
that puppy
that kitty
that tortoise
that bunny
and
it grabs
your
heart
and
you need
to love it
with all of you
maybe
it is me
finally enough
finally yours
like
i have always been
but

in the shape
you
can
finally
love back

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